Hello folks, this is my first blog since my father's passing. I don't have a great lesson in my words for you, not
that my blogs have ever had some great lesson to share. I've struggled to come up with something to write
about at all. No, that's not totally true. I've had thoughts on occasion the last two months, something that has
caused me to be indignant, happy or sad that I would like to have shared with you, but I have not been able
to express them here. It has been as if someone has punched me in the stomach and whoosh; all the words
and thoughts have been expelled from me and I'm having a hard time catching my breath. Sarah has been a
great comfort during this time as have my friends yet still for the first time in my life words do escape me. It's
ironic that at a time where I want and almost need to find a great lesson, something to hang my hat on if I can
be so flippant, I am blank. I feel reminiscent about life in general, reflecting on how things have played out
over time wondering if I have done my best, been as kind as I should have been (that answer is no), accepted
people for their strengths and not their faults in my life. A road of "what if" with large billboards of memories
that trigger rushes of emotion that "jerk" me back to the present time. It's as if I've nodded off while life
passes by and been startled awake by the realization. I don't know when things will get back to "normal" if
life can ever be called normal. A friend posted on my Facebook that "Grief is a long road" and they are
mostly right. I would say "Grief is a long hard road" and we all make the journey sooner or later.
About Me
- Michael White
- Nashville, TN, United States
- Well everyone else seems to be blogging ( is that a word?)so I thought I'd give it a shot. Just musings about something that happened to me...life. Happens to the best of us though, right?
I can only imagine how you feel Mike. My husband recently reminded me how short and precious life can be when I asked him "why" do we have to lose a family member or someone we love. He said it is "part of our age" and that "we are going to start losing more and more people we love with age". Hold on to Sarahs love and comfort...she will help you get through this hard time.
ReplyDeleteKnow that there are people that care about you even though we haven't seen you in 25 + years !
Take care and make God give you the peace you need.
Traci
A long road is traveled the same way as any road--one step at a time, one foot in front of the other. You're on your way, brother.
ReplyDeleteI once heard a preacher tell a story about hiking down into the grand canyon. On the way back up, they were having a hard time. The Park Ranger came by and gave them this advice, "Keep on moving. Keep putting one foot in front of the other. Stop and rest when you need to do so. Take a long drink of water. Then keep on moving." Grief is much the same way. Praying for you as you walk this hard journey.
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